Now the only thing left is an explanation.
And I hope to do that soon, but I'm afraid I can't right now. I am knee deep in getting our house ready to put on the market, and I just don't believe I have the emotional energy to write about it or figure out how I want to say everything.
I will say that it's very exciting! What's happening is an amazing God story. And there is so much to look forward to. But it's very emotional too, saying goodbye to so much and so many. So, it's complicated.. not the situation... my emotions I suppose, which then translates into my blog post. wow, you get the point, don't you?
Even still, something happened tonight that I had to share. Jarrod and I have been trying to break the news to the boys about moving. Really Josiah because I'm not sure Titus would completely understand at this point. Anyway, the other night, Jarrod told Josiah that we were going to move to NY and have a new house. He mentioned being close to Grammy and Grandpa and also making new friends. Josiah looked at Jarrod intently the entire time and when Jarrod was done there was a brief pause. "Daddy, can we play fight?"
That was it, no acknowledgement of the life altering news just shared. Just a request to wrestle. So as you can see, we weren't so sure it was sinking in.
But tonight the boys and I went to target and on the car ride home, out of the blue Josiah said, "Mommy, I am going to have to tell David and Tyler (friends at church) goodbye because we are going to a new house."
Me: "That's right buddy and you could give them a hug and tell them you are so glad you are friends and that you will miss them."
Josiah again: Will we have to get a new Jesus?
That's right, he really did ask that.
Me: "No, baby, Jesus will be with us where ever we go. And He'll be the same Jesus. He never changes Josiah."
Four year old's have the funniest thoughts sometimes, but after reflecting on it-his question was pretty legitimate. I guess he is thinking it through after all.
And honestly answering it was a great reminder.
Almost every inch of life will change, but His book says He is the same yesterday, today and forever.
My God will never change and He will never not be with me.
* Double negative intended ;)